The Road goes ever ever on

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I know I haven’t blogged for a while but it’s been quite hectic recently. I’m on half-term now and I suddenly realised it’s been exactly a year. A year ago I was a shy bullied girl recovering from something I still didn’t understand and I couldn’t believe had happened to me. I wandered into my older brother’s room to look for a book to read and by chance picked up the Fellowship of the Ring. As I started, I promised I wasn’t going to become ‘one of those fangirls.’ Little did I know.So now a year later and looking back on it, I’ve decided to go over ten things Tolkien has taught me as well some of my favourite Middle-earth moments, songs and pictures. Number one will be posted on the 25th March which is the day Frodo destroys the ring. Until next time, AJ xx

 

Betrayel-A cliche?

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I am thinking of make my main characters in my book a betrayer but I read somewhere about how much of a cliche that was, especially in YA fiction. But I can’t think of a better character arc or role for this character? What do you think? Is someone backstabbing someone else a cliche?. AJ xx

Life is given t…

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Life is given to each of us in a flatpack box with no instructions and a few screws missing. We just spend the next however many decades trying to put it together then you discover the instructions, you have to write them yourselfs. It’s what you make and how you put it back together when it falls apart, not waiting for someone else to do it.

You and my heart

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The day we met was the best day of my life

You were everything

But then you destroyed me

You tore up my heart to shreds

And walked all over it

With your size ten feet

And left me to pick up the pieces

And to slot them back together

But it can never go back

Because it’s missing a bit

The bit I gave you

And I can never have back

and I can never be whole

The Day you left

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The day you left

a light in me went out

I wait 24 hours but you don’t come back

I remember when you told me

you were in the middle of your sentence

and I died a little

because I didn’t want to hear the end

I wait 48 hours in hope you’d come back

I looked for you everywhere

I still expect to hear your voice

and in my darkest moments

and brightest days

you should be there

I wait 3 weeks but no word. Nothing.

I send you ten messages,

3 texts and a

phone message. Nothing.

You dissapeared into the dust

and took a part of me with you

After six months your

just another memory in draw

another person I’ve lost

I wonder if we’ll meet again one day

faraway

in a coffee shop

in a distant city

and rekindle everything we had

after 4 and a half years

these miles have torn us worlds apart

and I know deep down

your not coming back.

What does it mean to be popular?

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Because I am:

a)still at school

 b)a writer and a people watcher 

c)a complete social reject, 

It’s been on my mind for a bit now.What actually makes you popular? Is it how you look or who your friends with or how you act around other people. What makes this particular people so interesting that everyone is terrified of yet secretly wishes they could be friends with . Is doing that one daring thing that get’s you noticed or bullying some kid you’ve never met to show off what you can. We spend years either fearing this group of friends or having the time of our lives being part of it and never consider that they are simply a bunch of friends who happened to loved and admired by everyone. Personally I think most of them are a bunch of arseholes that bullied me and if there’s one thing I’m learning at school, being popular is only who your were.

So thoughts anyone, what does being popular mean to you either now or when you were at school? AJ xx

Projects

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Long Way From Home(Being Edited)

Ben is 14 when he is sent to a prestigious Boarding school in the North of Scotland called St Richmond’s College. To him, boarding schools are a stereotype and only exist in books or to the very well off. He is convinced he’ll hate it. When he gets there, he is placed in Arkansas House which has about 60 teenage boys and goes from being scary to the home he never had. His four roommates; Jel, the boy who seems to have it all, Henry and Zook, forever single , very different but inseparable and Brad who is very clever and always keep the peace take Ben under their rebellious wings.  

When Ben agrees to a bet to set up the bullied kid in their house with a girl in the year above, both who don’t know the other exists and says that him and his Arkansas boys can make them a couple in  a year, nobody believes they can. But this bet will have far reaching consequences for everyone. Because it hadn’t been for the bet, Ben wouldn’t have met Jay.

Long Road Home (In progress)

With the beginning of Sixthform upon them, the Arkansas boys have some adapting to do. Ben sees this as the chance to truly shine and with Jay gone, he can put her behind him and start anew. Henry is having to learn to survive on his own and find his feet without Zook who is also having a pretty hard time of it. Brad’s dad is pressuring him more than ever to do well and he doesn’t know if he can cope. Rome’s move back to Gallagher is finally insight but has he changed to go back? Will it be everything he’s dreamed off? And when Jel comes back, it’s not the world he left behind. Slowly everyone begins to learn that what you want and what you are dealt are two very different things and it can take you a lifetime to realise that.

Blood vs. Water (Not Started)

Ben is 43 and CEO of a toothpaste company. He has two teenager children, a rocky marriage and he is not sure if he loves his wife. He hasn’t been to St Richmond’s College for 25 years. But that all changes when he gets an email from an old friend asking him if he will do a lecture there about working in a company. He is going to refuse by an opportunity to stand up in Chapel where he went every morning for four years and talk about his glory days? What could go wrong?

Observer

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She was just a lonely school girl 

who knew nothing of the world

she was just a young girl

barely 17

who everyone knew

had been hurt time after time

but they never did anything

she was just a young girl

who everyone they thought they knew

‘never speaks’ said one

‘never comes with us ‘ said another

‘never does anything’ said them all

‘why can’t she just be normal

why can’t she be bad and waste

away her life with us’

but when she came

they shunned her and

ignored her

but she did more than any of them

she saw more than all of them 

and she was given the world